I'm awake...

Hi all,
It's 6:30 on Sunday morning. I'm awake. Mostly because I was sick most of the day yesterday and slept pretty much from 1-6:30pm. I didn't sleep very soundly throughout the night and here I am...online during the wee hours of the morning. I've already been up for an hour or so reading.

I'm feeling complicated again. It's mostly because the way I'm sick is complicated. It's just because "my stomach hurts" or because of "something I ate." I'm not feeling well based on many different compounding factors that if I were lay them all out for you would seem completely overwhelming and way TMI.

Yet I long for simplicity. I hope I get to really experience that one day.

light bulbs

I have three lights in my room. Two lamps and one overhead light/ceiling fan. The fan never goes off, but I rarely use the overhead light. It just doesn't radiate coziness. In the past I've only used it if I'm cleaning or packing or something very utilitarian.
But this week, my desk lamp blew. We normally have stash of bulbs in the house, but not this week. So I've spent all weekend doing without. Sometimes I've chosen the overhead light, but really I'd just rather go with 50% light and not have my light at my desk but relying soley on the one by my bed.
I don't know why I'm writing about this, but I really feel the need to get back into blogging. So I picked what was on my mind. There are a hundred deep topics on my mind: fighting uphill battles, friends suffering, feeling a little neurotic, and completely and totally overwhelmed with life. But somehow tonight lightbulbs seemed like a concise enough subject to write one. Who knows what will come next?