9 minutes left of birthday…

or 7 or 6 or 40, it depends on what you count. I first decided to sit down and blog about my birthday when my friends left my house. So at that point, it was 11:20 so I thought I’d name this “40 minutes of birthday.” But then the connection was so slow, I thought I’d reboot while I got ready for bed. By the time I got back, it was 12 minutes left of birthday, then 9, then…well now its 6.
So I’m writing this in a Word doc, who knows when it will actually get published. Why must dial up connections be so slow? I just don’t want to pay for connection so this is the price, I suppose.

My real topic…not griping about connection speed…is birthday reflections. Today I turned 29. I’m 29. I’ll be 30 in a year. I’m really ok with it. No, really. I am. I think it must be supernatural because most of my friends go through this sort of anxiety/panic thing and I’m just not sensing that. Maybe I will at 30, or 31. I don’t know, all I know is that 29 feels good. Like this is just right. Exactly where I’m supposed to be. I asked God this morning to make me conscious of things to be thankful of today. Well it happened this morning, and then it happened at my birthday party tonight.
It was a really fun party. A good mix of friends was here and we talked and ate cake and strawberries and some pretty scary fondue (it was chocolate, so really how scary can it be? Yeah, that’s what I thought too). But most of all, I just felt blessed and loved and cared for. I love seeing my friends connect with each other, even if they didn’t previously know each other. Real connection happened tonight, right here in my living room (which I mopped myself today….mopping the floor on my birthday was not one of the things I was thankful for, but now it is).
Well, the clock just turned to 12:00. Its May 29th. My birthday is over. In years past, I’ve had to do birthday re-do’s on the 29th because my real birthday just did not go well. I could tell tales.
This birthday, however, was not one of them. It was sweet. I had some alone time, which was good, but a lot of friend time as well. Thank you, sweet friends, who came to show love to me. And thank you, dear ones, who sent me love from afar and reminded me of the glory of my heart.
Wow. This year is going to be good.
Actual posting time 12:08. No comment.

Books!

Books are one of my favorite things. I love them. I love reading them, collecting them, and sometimes just looking at them all sitting on a shelf all tall and proud. I just like them. But alas, somtimes, you gotta let some go.
I'm running out of shelf space and I've come to the conclusion that I will just never read these books...the desire isn't even there so its bye bye books.
So you can now--for a limitted time only--buy buy my books! My username is xaris19 on amazon.
They've been under my desk for two months. I've been meaning to get them online but just haven't made it happen. Hopefully they won't be collected under there for much longer.

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I realized after I wrote that bit about the blank page that it became something about firefly, not the blank page itself.
I notice this phenomena happening in my journal a lot. I feel the urge to write. But I'm sitting there. And nothing happens. That is, until I begin to write about having nothing to write about. Then inevitably, things come.
So the blank page is an impetus for thought, but acknowledging that blankness in my own mind tends to lead somewhere. Whether it is worth anything is a different story. So the blankness of a page (or a text field as the case may be) can either be something fearful or something inspiring, depending on where I am at that moment.
So here's to blank text fields to come. Hopefully they won't be filled with crap.

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Daniela says its time for a new post. I think it is too, except for the fact that I can't really think of much to write at this point in time.

I'm back in Orlando, now. My time at home was fast...really fast. What little freetime I had was spent watching a wonderful series that my brother owns--Firefly. We actually got it for him for his birthday last year....and this year, too. It was stolen around Christmas so he needed a new one. When I asked to borrow it, he still hadn't watched it. I wondered if it was worth is buying again, honestly. But from the moment I turned it on....well ok, I wasn't too wild about it for about 20-30 minutes...from 30 minutes into it, I was hooked.

Cowboys. Spaceships. Cussing in Chinese. Every character with a story and a history. It's a amazing. I won't go on too much, but there is a movie coming out this fall called Serenity. Let me see if I can find the trailer.
There, found it. http://www.serenitymovie.com/